The first time I ever saw him we were at university, during a class we were both taking. He was sitting in front of me. I don't know why he did it, but he turned to me and we started talking. He was fascinated by my name and kept smiling the smile I still love so very much (more than one year later).
Back then I was in a reationship, and didn't care too much about my mysterious colleague, although I was more than intrigued by his behaviour, manners and so on. But not in a sexual or I'd-date-him kind of way. We never really became friends but always had weird and full of tension encounters or short conversations.
In the summer my long time boyfriend and I split. Me and this guy only met once (during summer) and it was just like I expected: tension, electricity, awkwardness, but in a more fuzzy and warm way. The next year we had even more classes together. HE actually started making small talk with me, inviting me to different events and so on. I must say from now, he is a baptist and I am an orthodox, and in my country, baptists are used to being friends only among themselves, and never date catholics or orthodox people. So even if I like this guy more than anyone I've ever liked, I felt and feel held back by this issue and by the fact that I don;t know if he even liked/likes me at all. One day I asked him "When are you going to invite me for a cup of hot cocoa?" (something like this). He said he didn't know any places worth to take me out, and that we shuold wait for the appropriate time. The next days he started to behave incredibly nice, and always looked at me and seized me, and kept coming over to me in order to talk. This lasted for 3 or 4 days, and then nothing. Absolutely no word, for weeks.
Now we still talk sometimes, the tension is still there, I can see him sometimes sighing after looking at me and stuff, and I'm desperate. I like him more than words can say, and I don't know what to do whatsoever. I know for sure he doesn't have a girlfriend so...
Please help me, I'm desperate!