"It's time to burn the beret and bury the blue dress," Monica Lewinsky writes in the June issue of Vanity Fair, available nationwide on May 13. While we thought that time should have been, oh, about 15 years ago, Monica says she is finally going to stop "tiptoeing around my past — and other people's futures." Now 40, she's determined to have a different ending to her story, and part of achieving that goal is telling her side in the national media. In the piece, Monica, whose image never recovered like former President Bill Clinton's did, sets the record straight on a number of points.
On Beyoncé's lyrics in "Partition": "Thanks, Beyoncé, but if we're verbing, I think you meant 'Bill Clinton'd all on my gown,' not 'Monica Lewinsky'd.'"
On Hillary Clinton saying she partly blamed herself: "Mrs. Clinton, I read, had supposedly confided to Blair that, in part, she blamed herself for her husband's affair (by being emotionally neglectful) and seemed to forgive him. . . . She may have faulted her husband for being inappropriate, but I find her impulse to blame the woman — not only me, but herself — troubling."
On keeping quiet out of respect for Hillary's political ambitions: "I remained virtually reclusive, despite being inundated with press requests. I put off announcing several media projects in 2012 until after the election. (They were subsequently canceled — and, no, I wasn't offered $12 million for a salacious tell-all book, contrary to press reports.) And recently I've found myself gun-shy yet again, fearful of 'becoming an issue' should she decide to ramp up her campaign. But should I put my life on hold for another eight to 10 years?"
On the consensual nature of the Clinton affair: "Sure, my boss took advantage of me, but I will always remain firm on this point: it was a consensual relationship. Any 'abuse' came in the aftermath, when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position."
While Monica deeply regrets her part in the affair, she also writes, "Thanks to the Drudge Report, I was also possibly the first person whose global humiliation was driven by the Internet." She also says that during the ordeal, she had strong suicidal thoughts. Monica now plans to turn her efforts to helping victims of online humiliation and harassment.