>> Two weeks ago, Naomi Campbell's temper made news again when she walked out of an ABC News interview and allegedly punched the camera after being questioned about a blood diamond reportedly given to her by former Liberian President Charles Taylor.
On today's episode of The Oprah Winfrey Show, however, Campbell says that she never punched the camera: "There definitely is sound effect [added]. There were three cameras, and I went to walk out the door, and the other one came in the way. So I moved the first one out to get to the door, and there were two more." She says she didn't want to ask questions about Taylor because she didn't want to be involved in his war crimes case, and adds: "Because of my behavior in my past, I will be sometimes pointed at and said, 'She hit me.' And I've got no proof of saying any different."
She sees red before her outbursts »
Before her outbursts, Naomi says she sees red. "And then what?" Oprah prompts. "Then I don't see . . . I act out." Afterwards, she says she regrets her actions. "I feel remorseful. I feel ashamed. I feel for them. [I think,] 'What have I done to them?' If I've hurt them." She says her issues go beyond anger management. "I think it comes from a deeper place than that with me. It comes from another type of emotional disorder, because it's not just, 'I don't get what I want. I throw.' It comes from, I think, an abandonment issue, and it comes from also just trying to build up a family around me that's not my immediate family. And if I feel a mistrust, then I really just . . . all my cards go down."
Campbell says she's on good terms with all the men she's dated, however. "I can walk into a restaurant and see an ex-boyfriend and be able to say, 'Hello, how are you doing? And you're well?' I don't have an issue of bumping into an ex-boyfriend."
She says she's been sober from drugs for six years, from alcohol for a year and a half. And she jumps rope to keep her face firm, but: "The aging process to me, I don't care about the skin, what it looks like. For me, now, what's important is the inside. And to come to that peace where it's okay, I may look good. But I need to look the same way on the inside. That's what I'm trying to achieve."