So I've been dating my boyfriend for almost 4 years, and we have a one-year-old together. Things were great before we had my daughter. He somewhat changed when I found out I was pregnant. Anyways, before all of this I found a text message to a girl that he wants to have sex with who was an escort.
Let's fast-forward now: it seems as if since my daughter came into our lives things aren't how they use to be, which I understand after having a baby. So the night of my baby's birth he found out I activated my Facebook again. I denied it, but he caught me in that lie. Yes, I was wrong for lying about it but I didn't think he would have gotten so uptight about it. I just wanted to let the world know I was having a baby. So he forced me to give him my password, which I did, and he snooped and read some messages I had with a friend about how fun it was hanging out when I was single (way before my guy now). He freaked out about the message thinking I was reminiscing about the past, when it was just a message about how it was cool we hung out as friends. Yes, we got drunk at a friend's and kissed. My guy flipped.
That's where I want to start now. After that whole ordeal, things were OK, and he wasn't really a dad figure much. He smokes weed and goes out to his friends until 2-3 am, while I am at home with his baby. I don't think there has been a day where he spent the entire day with our daughter. I went to get my hair done once in the Summer, and he got super mad and called me while I listened to my child cry into the phone because he didn't know what to do.
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In the past 6-8 months I've caught him watching porn a lot more and going on to escort websites! I'm not sure if that's a sign of him wanting someone different. It was almost a daily thing — actually it was daily. My daughter was playing with his phone one time and opened a message that read I'm available all day, price, etc. I confronted him about it, and he lied about what it was. Another time was when we hung out and a message had popped up saying she was available all day, and he had lied about it and said his friend is free all day. His story changed. If it was his friend it would have his name on it. Anyway so he logged on to my Facebook, started snooping and read a message between me and a friend. We went into talking about my past, our daughter, and our relationship. I was vulnerable and needed a friend to talk to with what was going on — I needed advice. Since that message he read, he accuses me of cheating, meeting up with him, texting and calling him, which I never did! He logged onto my email accounts and viewed my phone records to see. So I changed my password because I had found another text message from an escort.
A few days ago, I felt something wasn't right, did some digging and found that he had sent some personal photos to random girls I don't know. He sent pictures of himself, signed up for an escort website and viewed tons and tons more escort websites. I confronted him, and he lied about it. I showed him proof, and he blamed me because I had changed my Facebook and email passwords. He wanted me to sync my iPhone in to see what I've been up to. I did try syncing it and followed the instructions on how to recover old data, but while backing up my phone it made my iPhone restore itself to factory default. I've explained to him what happened, but he thinks I did it on purpose, which I didn't. He still thinks it's fishy.
Anyways he tells me that the reason why he's doing what he is doing (sending nude pics / signing up for escort websites ) is because I'm not giving him my password. It makes it hard for me to trust him after he keeps texting escorts. The reason I don't understand is, why does he say that but he did it before I ever got my Facebook back? He wants my passwords and thinks I'm hiding something when I'm not. I refuse to give it to him because he convinced me he was going to put effort into being a dad and a better boyfriend, which he hasn't. I'm tired of getting hurt and my boyfriend being gone 12 hours a day, not including work. I feel I'm to blame for everything. He was never honest with me from day one of meeting each other
Should I give in and give him my passwords or should I stand my ground?
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