I've been with my boyfriend for about two months, and he's my first official boyfriend. I am 22, so that's a little weird, I know. When he asked me to be his girlfriend, it was about two weeks into dating, and I was just thrilled that someone finally wanted me. He's cute and so, so sweet to me and likes me a lot . . . never has he been anything but kind to me. We have a similar sense of humor and views on the world.
However, there are things that bug me about him, and it's mostly from my end. I don't feel superattracted to him (though I do think he's cute, there's just no . . . gut feeling, you know?) and I don't always look forward to seeing him (he's been bugging me lately . . . I'm bored, I guess). I think we've just gotten into a routine lately, already. I feel like he doesn't try that hard at some things in life? Like his appearance, and in bed . . . it's not terrible, but he doesn't try that hard, for me, and it makes me sad. I don't feel like we are that close, and I feel like he's OK with it. He's admitted to some severe depression in the past, and it makes me concerned about hurting him and causing him to go back into that. I do care about him, but I definitely think it's unbalanced, and I feel so guilty about that.
I don't know what I should be feeling or what I should do. I don't have a point of reference for this situation. I guess some guidance/advice would be greatly appreciated. I don't want to be cruel or do anything I regret. He's done nothing wrong, and I feel like sh*t for not being totally into him. Help!