This Saturday I went to a party my friend was having. I felt so out of my element being there with them, because I haven't been around them in a very long time. I didn't feel any connection as friends with any of them. So I ended up sitting the whole time.
We are all in our early 20s so naturally drinks would be involved. They all were drinking and dancing, while I don't drink. Since we graduated high school, everyone went their own way, and new ways of thinking, and now I just don't know them at all. I love to dance, but when I'm around them something happens that I shut down the real me.
They know me as the quiet kind. But the truth is I'm not quiet at all, when I'm with my family I'm the loudest person ever. I make jokes, dance, make a fool of myself, but when I'm with my "friends" all of that goes away.
They have never been good friends, they used to try to make me rebel against my mom which of course they didn't accomplish that. Even though I have known them for years I don't trust them enough to be me around them, and they take advantage of that. Should I just stop hanging out with them, and just have a "hi how are you relationship," and find new friends that I trust completely?