I first plan on being completely honest. I am only 22 and realize I am very young; my boyfriend, however, is 27 now. Putting age aside, which doesn't really matter to me, I have been head over heels for this guy for five years now. We moved in together about two years ago, and while I knew it wasn't wise, I was strapped because of some family issues so I took the chance even though I do not agree with it.
I initially lived across the street anyways so we were used to being around each other a lot. He moved and I later moved in with him. I finally, in March, was able to buy my own house and invited him to move in with me. We've been playing house I guess now since March, and I'm going to lose it! My mom had me at 16, my sister at 18 and married by 18. She has four kids and has been divorced now twice and is totally a gold digger. His parents were in their early 20s when they got married; he's the middle of three boys, and they grew up in a trailer with little money. His parents argued a lot too. They are still together now and get along great.
Now while I do not want all that for myself, there is something inside me that desires to be married and have children so bad — and I don't want to wait. He is clearly not ready for marriage. Last year I thought to myself I would give him until Christmas to propose. While throwing around hints that I hoped Santa might bring me an engagement ring, by his response, I can tell that isn't the case — at all.
I know he loves me, and he says if I love him, I will trust him and wait. While I get that, how is it fair for me to wait around because he isn't ready?
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