I love him with all of my heart and it would kill me to leave him, but our relationship has not been an easy one to say the least. I am almost 13 years younger than he is, which adds a lot of complications, but in a lot of ways we mesh very well together because of the age gap. When we first got together we had a hard relationship because we both had to get used to the age difference and the response from other people but that is no longer an issue.
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He has done a few bad things to me in the past and I am still struggling to build up trust for him again and that is eating me up inside. I also don't enjoy sex with him like I used to because of the trust issues. I feel as though I am no longer enough for him and he needs to access other things like porn, etc. to fulfill his needs. He also never tries to fulfill my sexual needs, but I don't know how to talk to him about it without offending him. He is not all bad; he does treat me very well and cares for me dearly, he looks after me and I know that he loves me. I just feel deep down that God has someone else for me, that this man is not my future, but I'm scared to leave without knowing because I know I will end up back in his arms. What do I do? (Also: I am not with him because I can not get a man my own age. I am very attractive, smart and fun, our relationship just kid of happened.)