I have been trying to convince myself that I am not actually feeling lonely and that I do not want or need a man in my life, but it hasn't worked. I've been single for over a year now and hating every minute of it. It wasn't until maybe three or four months ago that I started to want to have a boyfriend, not because I wasn't ready due to my previous relationship, but because I just did not want to have any commitment to anybody and felt like I needed to feel free and make new friends instead of lovers.
I feel like everyone around me is either engaged, married, with a boyfriend or at least having an active dating life. I've noticed that regardless of what people look like: pretty, ugly, fat, skinny, moody, angry, bitchy, employed, unemployed, intelligent and even not so intelligent, geeky or not; everyone has someone and I feel like I have been left alone in the world. Yes I know I sound dramatic but it's what I've seen over the past few months.
Aside from not having a boyfriend to cuddle with (I have my dog though, lol) I have very few friends which are always MIA. For some reason they don't really consider me when making plans and stuff, even though when we do spend time together we all have a great time (they even say so).
Please help me. In a way feel like I need to find other people that may be going through a similar situation because I have already done everything possible to remedy my situation such as joining social groups in order to meet new people, and even went chemistry.com and a couple of speed dates.