My boyfriend told me he loves me. And I don't know if I feel the same way. Sometimes I think I do. Other times I don't. Most of all, I just keep wondering WHAT love is, and speculating I might even, though I don't know. But at the same time, I believe when I do love him/someone, I'll just know. Implicitly. No questions or explanation needed. And so I guess I'm waiting for that feeling.
But I find increasingly that I'm more afraid of the promise saying "I love you" holds than the actual meaning. Because I undoubtedly love him on some level. But I'm not sure I'm ready to say it, since it feels like a promise I can't back out of. I'm in that ridiculous situation where I don't want to move forward, yet I really don't want to lose him. I'm the persona most complained about!! I'm the s.o. that wants to keep dating, but doesn't want to be serious. (To be fair, my bf and I are fairly serious and talk about the future together, but I'm hesitant to make a commitment.) I worry that I might just be a commitment phobe . . .
My boyfriend is obviously waiting for me to say I love you back to him. What should I do?