Ive been with my boyfriend for two years. We had a rocky start; he lied to me and he completely lost my trust. Two years before that, I dated guys and all they did was use me when I had no idea. I was clueless, and they all broke my heart when I attached feelings to them. And now I have no trust left whatsoever.
My boyfriend now tells me to get over our past because it was a while ago, but I try and I can't. I always am sad and can't seem to trust him or I freak out about little things. Why am I this way? He gets mad, but I was never shady to him, until now. I don't care, but it isn't my fault he's the one who made me this way. What do I do about letting go of my past? I can't seem to find anyway to do it. Now I find reasons to make myself sad, like make him tell me about his past again so I can be mad at him and he hates me when I do that. Please help.