Here is the story in a nutshell. I have A LOT of history with my ex-boyfriend (on and off for 5 years), we will call him Billy. Billy and I have been through so much together and I have and always will have strong feelings for him. I know that this sounds silly, but I know that he is my soul mate.
Right at a year ago I started dating someone else, we will call him Nick. Nick is great and for the most part he treats me wonderfully. A few months ago I did start noticing things about Nick and our relationship that made me second guess everything and question myself if I was just settling. I will be 30 in a couple of years and I want a home, family and a husband. Nick lives in another state which would require me packing up my life and moving for a man. Nick met my entire immediate family a few weeks ago and they do not like him for some reason. My mom and brother have been acting somewhat distant, and I know it's because for some reason they do not like Nick.
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Back to Billy, his brother and my best friend are married to each other and so it never fails that we see each other at family functions. Here recently Billy and I had a chance to sit down and talk for several hours about life and what each of us had been doing. To arrange this talk, he had text messaged both his brother and my best friend and asked them to leave the room so that we could talk. We discussed many things including us. Over the past two years Billy has called me twice saying that he wanted to marry me and that we should start dating again. A few weeks of talking he would drop off the face of the earth with no explanation and leave me heartbroken. For the most part Billy has been a constant disappointment but we still have feelings for each other. The night that we had our talk he told me that night and again the next day that as long as I was in a relationship, he would not pursue a relationship with me. He didn't want to disrespect me or the other guy like that. Billy recently had something very bad happen to him that made him realize what he wanted in life and what mistakes in the past that needed fixing. He was very open with me and told me that he wants a wife, a family and a home. As do I. I saw my current boyfriend that next weekend and things were so strange. Nick was not himself, very short with me and had a VERY bad temper. He maybe said a total of 20 words to me the entire weekend.
My question is this: Given that my current relationship is not going so well, should I move on to my ex and give that another shot? My ex Billy will always be in my mind no matter who I am with and being with him for the rest of our lives is what would make me the happiest than anything else in the world. I'm just confused as to what to do now? Please help me.