Okay so he's not my ex, but it was just easier to say that he was to condense the title. What he really did was mess around with me for two months (no sex, thank God), stop talking to me, then date my roommate's friend out of nowhere. It sounds pretty cut and dry but it was a pretty tumultuous time and it really hurt because I liked him and I thought he liked me.
One of the options for my New Year's Eve is to go to a hotel party, be chill, no strings attached, whatever. The other option is the go to HIS ex-girlfriend's house and party there. And I KNOW all my friends will prefer that since it's easier and since it's comfortable. She's his ex. HE will probably come with whomever he dumped me for. It's like a trifecta of awkwardness and residual feelings and it's going to RUIN my night if he's there.
And I'll be damned if I just stay at home. What should I do? Part of me wants to get really dressed up and pretty and show up all three of them, and make him jealous. But the other part of me is still kind of hurt about what he did and does not want to be where he is, ever. Why would I want to ring in the New Year feeling all weird and awkward and upset? I still even have physical reactions when I hear his name. It makes me really sick to my stomach.
So should I protect my heart and try really hard to find somewhere else to go (or don't go anywhere)? Or should I suck it up and just deal with it and go to his ex's house party (all of my good friends are friends with his ex, so it makes sense for me to also come)?