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Rantings of a Single Girl: Feeling Empty

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I had a wonderful vacation.  Wonderful.  It was so great to see my best friend again and meet my nephew.  We had a great time just hanging out and catching up.  Getting to cuddle with the baby was a great stress reliever as well.  It was so hard to leave and come home.

When I got home, I can't tell you how badly my heart ached.  My house felt so empty.  Sure, Devil Cat was happily waiting on me, but it feels so void of life.  At my friend's house there were people coming by to celebrate the baby.  He was screaming, crying, cooing.  A family was in that home.  My home is missing all that.

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I say I love my single life.  And I do.  But sometimes it is so hard.  I feel like I'm missing out on things.  Like love.  Life.  A family.  Sometimes I wonder if it will happen for me.  There is a quiet ache in the bottom of my heart for all those things.

I've realized how alone I am.  How my resentment of how others treated me so long ago has left me essentially friendless.  How my distrust of others has left me without love.  Of how much I want and how little I really have.

I used to think I didn't have regrets, but I do.  Not about the choices I've made, but in some of my actions.  I should have learned how to forgive a long time ago.  Maybe I would be on a different road.  Then again, maybe not.  I guess I'm just questioning myself.  Or maybe just going through a little depressed cycle right now.

Even if this is just a phase, I keep asking myself the same questions as I lie in bed every night.  What is life if you don't have someone to share it with?  What is life without someone to love and care for?  How to I bring these things into my life?  I try to take the good with the bad, but right now the bad is weighing on me.  The ache in my heart isn't so small anymore.

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GlowingMoon GlowingMoon 5 years
I agree -- I think many of us have moments like this, when we soul-search and reevaluate our lives. I think it's healthy. I hope your sort out what you really want, follow-through on your decisions, and have inner peace.
stephley stephley 5 years
I think that at 27, you might want to stop referring to yourself as a girl and you might ask why you see 'single' as a defining characteristic - sounds as if it's holding you back in life.
onlysourcherry onlysourcherry 5 years
I can't imagine being single without friends. Actually, I can't imagine being in a relationship or married without friends. I would say that that should be your focus for now.
MartiniLush MartiniLush 5 years
You know, I have moments of the exact opposite, where I am just dying for time to myself. So I can relate to how you are feeling, just in another way. I think you have hit on something that you feel is holding you back - lack of forgiveness. Work on just letting go. Then work on building trust with others. And most of all, forgive and begin to trust in yourself!
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