OK, I don't even know why this affects me so much. It's a purely physical interest that I have in him. we've been friends for over a year, and yeah, we get along great. He has a girlfriend, and they've never had the best relationship, so it's always been an on and off thing between them.
Anyway, the thing is that for a long time they were mostly off. He always hit on me, and while I thought he was cute, I never went for it (especially because I was taken, too). I've been single for a couple of months now. And during this period there was one night in which we both just were having the greatest time, dancing, laughing . . . and he told me he liked me. I kinda shrugged it off, because I knew he was just being sweet to get into my pants. Also, I'm not used to guys being sweet when they hit on me, so while I didn't magically fall in love with him, that whole "sweetness" shocked me, in a good, ego-boosting way. So we started making out and eventually we had sex.
I didn't think that much about it, and while it was great I regretted it because I felt it was too soon for me (considering I'd only ever been with my ex, and we hadn't been broken up for too long). And now I'm crushing on my friend!!! And we'd been flirting a lot lately, he was still being sweet (which I have to admit, was an awesome ego booster!), but we hadn't had the chance for anything to happen again when . . . BAM! He gets back together with his girlfriend, and now they're working things out.
Of course, now I've stepped back, but I'm dealing with this longing feeling, and it sucks. And I don't feel any particular interest in any guy now. I've also been having problems dealing with my breakup, since now I'm starting to miss my ex, especially the physical side of things (which is why I think I also have this longing for the other guy). I miss sex, and solo loving ain't cutting it. OK so these are like three problems together, but right now this whole crush thing is becoming annoying for me, I feel like such a 15 year old.