I am in my late 30's and am still having difficulty getting along with my mother. After college, I moved in with my now husband and never really spent significant time with my mother. She raised my sister and I on her own and while I know she did the best she could do given our circumstances, I still hold resentment towards her for our lack of closeness.
She is staying with my family over the 4th of July and I can already feel myself getting anxious and crabby. I have tried to make as many plans with other family members and friends to avoid spending alone time with her, but now I am feeling incredibly guilty for dodging my own mother. She has been looking forward to spending time with her me and her grandchildren for months now while I have been dreading it. Am I a horrible person for having ill feelings for my overbearing, over critical mother?