My boyfriend of six months moved me back to his hometown so he could be closer to his family. I had never met his mom before we moved and although we have only met three times, she asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding, which was last weekend. I didn't think I could say no so I agreed under pressure.
I am painfully shy and shudder at the thought of being in the spotlight. That, mixed with the worst bridesmaid dress imaginable; black, floor length, puffy sleeved, and fit for a funeral, I faked sick and backed out of my bridesmaid duties the morning of her wedding.
I am not an actress by any means, but everyone bought my story. Now that I am home alone, while my boyfriend and his entire family are celebrating my could be mother-in-law's marriage, I am feeling utterly guilt ridden. Am I the most terrible, vain, selfish human being imaginable?