My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years. I recently graduated college and moved to a new city to be with him while he also finishes his degree. We both moved into an expensive apartment, we adopted a dog, and at this point I'm unemployed and looking for a job. I love my boyfriend more than anything, and I wish this was under different circumstances and I didn't feel this way. But right now having a baby in our lives is not only irresponsible on our part but unfair to our child. I feel that our relationship would become very bitter and unhappy due to the fact that we've just recently made all these changes.
On top of that, I really don't want to have a child, as much as people cringe at the thought of that. The only solution I can think of is to have an abortion since I'm only a couple of weeks. I'm worried how my boyfriend will respond to my decision, and I'm scared that he will not only hate me, but also it will destroy our relationship. So, it's like I'm hurting us either way. I'm scared, but i know in my heart that I do not want to carry this to term even if he disagrees. What would you do?