I know this sounds like something a teenager would write, but here it goes anyway. I'm heading out of town for the weekend to visit my folks and other members of my family for a reunion. Unfortunately, my boyfriend can't get the time off work and will have to stay at our place alone. We've been together almost 4 years and I love him very much, but we've had some trouble in the past, which has left me with some trust issues. I've gotten better, as nothing has happened in a very long time, but I can't help but wonder if leaving him home alone for a weekend is going to give him "free reign" to do whatever he likes with no way for me to find out.
I want to talk to him about it but that's part of my issue. Last time I thought something was happening behind my back, I talked it over with him and he assured me that everything was fine and that he would never hurt me, but I found out about a month later that he cheated on me. We were separated for a while, talked things over, and he confessed he made a mistake and made a sincere apology so we eventually got back together.
Long story short, I'm unfortunately still insecure and feel that if I talked to him about it, he would just assure me that things will be fine. I'm going to enjoy my weekend no matter what, but what can I do to feel better about trusting him alone? Thanks in advance.