It has only been over the past few weeks that I've really started to see qualities in him that I'm not sure I'm comfortable with. It doesn't help that no one we know is supportive of our relationship. Not my parents, not his mom, not my friends. I can't remember the last time that anyone said anything nice about him. And he's so emotionally dependent on me, he has told me that if I were to break up with him that he would stop coming to church, he'd start drinking again, and he would start cutting himself again.
I'm really starting to question whether I'll be happy with him, or whether I can find someone better for me. But he is trying to join the military so he can support me. He does everything he can for me, and part of me does love him, I don't want to lose out on someone who truly cares for me. I haven't talked to my friends for most of this relationship (he has recently even begun openly disapproving of me hanging out with my friends), so I haven't had an opportunity to talk to them about this.