Kristen Stewart  spills her feelings on fame, fashion, and, yes, love in the March issue of Marie Claire , which hits newsstands Feb. 11. The famously private actress opened up about everything from being "the most awkward person" and her penchant for writing poetry  to how she makes professional choices, admitting, "I have no idea what I'm doing." When it comes to her relationship with ex-boyfriend Robert Pattinson , which ended last year, Kristen reveals that she spent most of her time after the breakup taking long road trips with friends and ruminating on her life, saying, "You don't know who you will fall in love with. You just don't." Keep reading for more memorable quotes from Kristen Stewart in Marie Claire.
- On making choices based on what scares her: "Dude, I have no idea what I'm doing, and that's kind of how I love it. I had no idea Twilight was going to be huge. Certain movies I've done I thought were going to be amazing did nothing. So it's fun not having so much control. It's kind of a fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants lifestyle — it's fun, but it's scary as f*ck. If it's not scary, you kind of have to step back and go, 'You're probably making this decision because it's right on paper.' But unless you get that irking fear, it's not right."
- On falling in love: "You don't know who you will fall in love with. You just don't. You don't control it. Some people have certain things, like, 'That's what I'm going for,' and I have a subjective version of that. I don't pressure myself. If you fall in love with someone, you want to own them — but really, why would you want that? You want them to be what you love. I'm much too young to even have an answer for that question."
- On being judged: "I stand by every mistake I've ever made, so judge away."
- On her relationship with designer Nicolas Ghesquière: "[After meeting Nicolas], fashion became less superficial in my eyes, though it wasn't my thing. Fashion has the best and worst people. The gems stick out. He was a designer I wanted to be around. He was so creative. If I have to walk red carpets, if I have to be in fashion, then I want to be with him."
- On her MO: "I'm kind of, like, an extremist. I really don't want to be working unless I'm bleeding it. And if I'm not working, then don't ever try to make a plan with me."
- On writing poetry: "I like being able to hit on something, like, 'There it is.' I don't want to sound so f*cking utterly pretentious. . . . But after I write something, I go, 'Holy f*ck, that's crazy.' It's the same thing with acting: If I do a good scene, I'm always like, 'Whoa, that's really dope.'"
- On being "the most awkward person": "I have an embarrassing incapability, seriously, of summoning fake energy. I'm just not very good on TV, and it's not my main goal in life to get good at it. People are like, 'She just can't handle' — for lack of a better word — 'the spotlight.' No, actually, I can't, and that is totally who I am. I love being an actor, but I'm the last person to want to have a birthday party. I don't try to force it or turn it into something else or fabricate this personality. . . . So I totally agree when people say I'm, like, the most awkward person."