JAY-Z recently laid out quite a few personal confessions on his 13th studio album [1], 4:44, but he isn't finished opening up just yet [2]. During an 11-minute Tidal video, Footnotes for 4:44, the rapper gets even more candid about the ups and downs of his relationship with Beyoncé [3]. "This is my real life. I just ran into this place and we built this big, beautiful mansion of a relationship that wasn't totally built on the 100 percent truth and it starts cracking," he says of their nearly decade-long marriage. "Things start happening that the public can see. Then we had to get to a point of 'OK, tear this down and let's start from the beginning.' It's the hardest thing I've ever done."

The rapper refers to a lot of these very "public moments" on his album. In addition to apologizing to Beyoncé for his infidelities [4], JAY-Z resurfaced that infamous elevator incident [5] with Solange Knowles at the 2014 Met Gala in his track "Kill Jay Z." During his discussion on the video with stars like Jesse Williams, Will Smith [6], and Kendrick Lamar, JAY-Z says they realized honesty was the best policy to repair their relationship. In fact, he and Beyoncé listened to his entire album [7] together before its release. "We've been in that space where we just got to the place that in order for this to work, it can't be fake — not once," he continued. "I'm not saying it wasn't uncomfortable because obviously it was, but because we've been doing it for so long it was less uncomfortable."