My best female friend broke up with me a couple of months ago, to be honest I'm not really even sure what happened, only that she started avoiding me, and then when I asked her about it she just freaked out and said she wanted me out of her life. She said some really horrible things about me as a person that have really hurt me, and I've done a lot of soul searching since then, and I really think a lot of that is inaccurate, or was based on miscommunications. I know she has some personal issues she is working through, and is on a couple different mood stabilizing medications. I recognize I'm not the greatest friend (If you're wrong . . . I'll tell you that. But it's because if you are in my life, I want the best for you . . . and I'm a horrible liar), but I do genuinely care about the people in my life and do the best to make their lives better.
Anyway, I can't get over it. I don't really know if it was me, or her, or what. But she still hangs out with all of my friends (who I introduced her to), and it's pretty awkward seeing her at parties and stuff. We don't speak at all — and the couple of times we have had to, she's played completely dumb like nothing ever happened. It's baffling. And I can't just block her on Facebook and forget about her because she's still in my social circle, I'll deliberately not go to parties I know she will be at, etc. It's starting to make me feel uncomfortable in my own circle of friends, and I worry what she told them about me.
So I'm upset, and really confused, and not sure how to move forward. Any advice, points of view, etc are greatly appreciated. Thank you.