Please help me sort out my feelings.
I knew my boyfriend (now fiance) had my engagement ring and it was just a matter of waiting for the right time. Well, he popped the question but at the wrong time. We were having a nice enough weekend together, spending Sunday afternoon touring a historic sight. I had a feeling he might ask that day, but really didn't want him too because the place we were at just wasn't very pretty.
Well, after we ate our peanut butter and jelly sandwiches at some run down picnic table he got up, knelt down and asked me to marry him. As soon as I realized what he was doing I thought "not now!" but held my tongue and just went with it. The rest of the day we were very lovey dovey and I tried to just forget the fact it wasn't what I was hoping for but I keep thinking about it. I was really wishing it would be in a beautiful place when we were feeling romantic. Oh and this may be a little bit too much TMI but that morning we had some very boring sex. I'm not much for morning sex so I just kind of play along if he is in the mood. I hate it that my engagement day included that as it's start.
We have told everyone but I honestly feel a little embarrassed telling my engagement story, (not including the sex part of course). How do I let it go?