I am 21 years old. I have a post graduate degree in Interior Design and am currently looking for a job. I recently got engaged and plan to get married next year. The problem is, I feel extremely trapped. My life is awesome, I have amazing parents, amazing fiancé and everything is working out, but sometimes when I think about it, the finality of it all, the fact that I will marry someone at 22, be with him for the rest of life, makes me feel oddly suffocated.
I recently decided that I was going to go to Europe and spend time traveling, everyone I know is against it. It costs too much, I have to get a job, what about my family blah blah. I want to cry at times, I am pushing my guy away. He thinks I am morose about a perfect life. I don't get it myself either, why can't I be happy with the life I have? I want to be satisfied. My friends think I might be depressed. Am I? Should I seek professional help? Can I snap out of it?