I don't really know why I'm doing it. I don't want him in my life anymore, and we haven't spoken for nearly four months. But I recently found his profile on a social networking website, with references to his new gf, and I can't stop checking on it, even though each time I go back it feels like someone slapping me and I go back to square one again.
I feel like there is some unfinished business there, because I never got to speak my mind when he ended things. I'm not willing to reach out to him in any way, because I just don't want him to know that I haven't moved on the way that he obviously did so easily, but is there something I can do to get past this phase quicker? I keep thinking subconsciously that if I just keep checking it long enough I'll eventually see some sign of his life falling apart and I can sit back and enjoy it, but I know that's not healthy and at this point I just don't want to be a slave to him anymore, like I was for a year and a half.