I hope that you can help me or give me some hope. I should have a lot of things to be thankful for in my life. I am dating a wonderful and caring man that loves me, I have fantastic friends who always support me, I am not in any kind of financial distress and I things are going well with my job. It would never appear as thought I have any real problems.
However, I do feel under emotional distress. My problem is that deep down, I am so hard on myself it is taking a serious toll on my life. If I make a simple mistake or if I don't live up to my own standards, I come down really hard on myself. When I actually do something right, I'm surprised myself because I expect to fail even though I wish to succeed.
I've tried reading self help books, magazines, even therapy. It helps temporarily, but it's not a lasting solution. I feel like such a loser and I can't really talk to anyone about this because I'm afraid I'll seem pathetic so I hold it all inside and just get moody. Is there anything you can suggest. I'd really appreciate your advice. Hard on Myself Heidi
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Dear Hard on Myself Heidi
I am sorry you are feeling this way. It sounds like you are being extra hard on yourself, and you are letting your inner critic get the best of you. Is there a specific act or behavior that gets you down? It is great to want to reach your goals, but why do you always expect so much out of yourself?
Your sense of self confidence is developed during adolescence and changes throughout life experiences. Did you have an experience growing up where someone made you feel inadequate? Suffering from low self esteem can create feelings of; depression, anxiety, stress, and loneliness. Instead of being so hard on yourself, try concentrating on all of the amazing things that your boyfriend and your friends love about you.
Keeping all of your feelings bottled up inside is never a good idea for anyone. Although you mentioned that you have tried undergoing psychotherapy, I suggest giving it another shot and sticking with it, as you are not going to see results overnight.
Anti-anxiety, or anti-depressant medication might also be an option to explore with a psychiatrist. Your feelings are far from pathetic so try confiding in your supportive system of friends and family. Finding ways to cope with our inner demons and insecurities is the first step to overcoming them.