I have been involved with James for about seven months now. We spend day and night together or talking every day. We have grown incredibly close and both say "I love you" on a daily basis. When we are apart, he constantly send "I miss you" texts. When he is out of town for work he mails me gifts/souvenirs from whatever city he is in. He adores me and I adore him.
Now, the problem . . . I want him to officially be called my "boyfriend" — I know it's just a label, but you girls understand how important that is. He says entering an official "relationship" would be the end, that would be when things get bad. I know he has a terrible romantic history and so do I. He is dead-set against it yet he won't let me go. We have been down this road before a few months ago, where I insist on a relationship and we have a huge ordeal only for me to go right back to him the next day.
Well, last night we went down this road again and I told him I MUST have time apart. We got really in depth about things and he says I am "throwing him away" when I feel it's HIM throwing me away since he won't do the one thing he KNOWS I need to be happy yet wants me to stick around. I told him all the things I think a relationship is. HE insists we already have all those things together. So then why won't he be my boyfriend? I am so utterly confused and I just KNOW he won't honor my no contact thing and will contact me today — even if it's just an email to ask how I am. I really just do not know what to do. I feel I am losing my best friend because of my pride and I feel horrible. At the same time, if I stick around I feel I am just constantly beating myself up with worry that he just will one day meet someone else who he DOES deem worthy for a relationship and then my heart will shatter even more. Should I stay away from him or what should I do?? PLEASE HELP. My heart is breaking.