I am 21 and got married when I was 18 because I got pregnant and thought it was the right thing to do. Well after I got married my husband became someone else. We were always fighting about stupid things. I got so stressed out about our fighting I ended up losing our baby when I was about three months pregnant, which stressed me out way more. I am no longer allowed to see any of my friends, I'm not allowed to have a cell phone because he thinks I will be talking to me ex boyfriends who I have not seen or heard from in years, he is allowed to go out with his friends and have a cell phone and do what he wants to do. He has not told me he loves me in about a year and I swear I try everything to make him happy and nothing works he has just become a mean and heartless person.
Well I started a new job a while back on 3rd shift which did not go over well he was furious, but we need money because he blows it all on drugs and alcohol. So to the point I did in fact meet someone at my job. We have not done anything together at all he has taken me out to breakfast a couple times and we just talk. He is soooo sweet and kind and caring and is always so concerned about how I am doing. He pull out chairs and opens doors and if it is raining out he pulls off his coat and holds it over me head even though I told him I had an umbrella. We just talk for hours and hours about everything and nothing. He makes me laugh like I have never laughed before. Every morning I get off work my cheeks hurt because he makes me laugh so much. He knows I am married but am not happy anymore and he does not have a girlfriend. He never tries anything with me because of my marriage but tells me I don't deserve what my husband puts me through.
I don't know what to do. I feel obligated to me husband because of our vows but I don't know if I can live like this for the rest of my life . . . does it make me a horrible person because this new guy has been showing me what I have been missing out on and now I want out? I don't know what to do please please please I need advice.