I've been together with my boyfriend for almost 10 years now. He's 19 years older than me, and I started dating him when I was 20. We are so right for each other, and in the past we've had the same goals and values in life. Neither of us had wanted to get married or have any kids (he was married and divorced so now he will not consider marriage again). Now that I'm 30, I feel like I may want to settle down and have children, and I have been trying to convince him into giving marriage another shot, or I might have to end the relationship. He has already told me time and time again that he will not marry again. However, a few weeks ago, he was diagnosed with Parkinson's disease, and I feel like I need to be there for him in his toughest times . . . Obviously, with his disease, it would not be wise to have children because I'll need to do most of the housework, take care of the children and work full time.
I feel so guilty leaving him, what should I do?