I love more than I hate. Come to think of it, I don't really hate. I just have low tolerance and choose to avoid the things that grate on my nerves. I love Travis. I love cupcakes (I was just talking today that they're the universal medication. I mean, what can't be solved with a good cupcake?). I love taking pictures with The Nikon (thats my cameras pet name). I love concerts, loud music, cartoons and drag queens. I cuss like a sailor. I'm a huge smart ass. And I've noticed lately I'm growing more towards hippie than goth, as I was in my younger day. I'm desperately trying to be less of a perfectionist. Perfectionism doesn't mesh well with this procrastination I have going on as well. So far, I think I'm doing pretty good. I started by cutting myself some slack. See the blog entitled "revelation" for more info on that. But I still have my days. Of course, I don't know that I'll ever break my list habit, but you know, nothing wrong with being organized. I recently started a new job. And so far, I've found out that's it not the jobs, its me. I'm breaking up with nursing. Its not you, its me. I'm not a nurse. I was not born a nurse and I'm tired of faking it. I'm desperately trying to find something that ignites a passion it me to fill my next 40 some odd years and to pay the bills. I want to go back to school ASAP, but I have to figure out what for. I'm too old and too poor to take classes just because. I'm trying to go green. So far, I don't use plastic bags from the grocery store, I have those curly light bulbs in my house, and I don't drink bottled water (I have a reusable bottle). However, I am struggling everyday with the fact that I do drive an SUV. Give me a break, its a small one, that gets fairly good gas mileage. I just don't want to give up the Dragula. I've struggled with the desire to grow up and become an adult but being stuck with a young mindset. Lately I've come to terms with the fact that I am forever young at heart, but I am also a responsible adult. I'm passionate about human rights, and would love to work with non-profit organizations sometime in the future. What can I say? I'm a green, pro-choice, gay supporting, liberal.