"Motherhood has been an exercise in guilt." — Felicity Huffman
I am a single mom, a student, a writer, a musician, and a widow. Each of these titles brings a different challenge to my life, and balancing it all can be extremely tough. Most of these roles I play can be put on hold, except one, and that's being a mommy.
My son, Jax, is currently 3 years old — he is a precious creature, and I adore him with all my heart. That being said, I have to admit that being a mom brings many emotions: love, guilt, devotion, stress, joy, and even pain. I can't deny that when I look at his baby picture on the fridge every day, I cry a little. It's not that I don't enjoy the age he is, but I do miss him being a baby. There's nothing wrong with that, is there? Babies smell delicious. Their skin is soft and squishy. They are tiny, and they fit right in your arms. Babies don't kick you in the gut and laugh. They don't scream at you to get their milk cup or tell you to go away or pitch a fit because their Play-Doh fell on the floor.
I've recently decided to take some time off work to focus on my child and my college career. Since doing so, I've opened up a whole new can of worms. Here are the top six reasons I cry while being a stay-at-home mom.