Mike Julianelle, a stay-at-home dad and blogger, has never been shy about giving his followers an unfiltered glimpse into his life. Recently, he shared an Instagram post that channeled many parents' thinking around this time of year: I cannot be home with my kids for a second longer. He explained how difficult it can be to keep your offspring occupied for every second of every day when they're not in school.
"It's day two of my Summer as a stay-at-home dad and I've already lost it on my kids," he wrote. "Actually, I lost it at day 1.5. I'm not cut out for this. I knew it 6 years ago when I did it for the first time, I knew it a month ago when it was looming again, I knew it yesterday when things were going well, and I definitely knew it today when I yelled at my 8-year-old and carried him to another room because he wouldn't stop complaining about something he actually wanted to do."
He continued: "I don't want to be a stay-at-home parent. I don't want to have to find ways to fill my kids' days all Summer. I don't want to plan, I don't want to pack stuff, I don't want to herd them places, I don't want to go places. I don't have the temperament, I don't have the patience, I don't have the interest. I also don't have a choice."
Like many couples who have to juggle crazy schedules, sometimes who's charged with watching the children shifts over the years.
"Circumstances being what they are, and Summer being what it is, someone has to stay home with my kids all day," he explained. "Mom and Buried has done it for years, and now she's working and I'm not, so I'm back in the saddle. Reluctance (and unsuitability) aside, I have no choice but to get better at it. They don't need to know how stressed I am, they don't deserve a dad who's grumpy and frustrated before the day has even begun, and most of all, they don't deserve a boring Summer. Summer is sacred. And it's usually Mom and Buried's territory. But it's on me now."
"I don't want to be a stay-at-home parent. I don't want to have to find ways to fill my kids' days all Summer."
While Mike doesn't necessarily want to put his kids in camp, he still wants them to have a break full of positive experiences. "No, we might not be able to send them to camp or take them on fancy trips, but that doesn't mean there aren't things to do," he wrote. "And it's on me to do them. More than that, it's on me to do them with a smile on my face. Or at least without constantly yelling at them."
But Mike's only human, and like most of us, he loses his patience every now and then. But as he notes, there's nowhere to go but up.
"So far, things aren't going so great," he confessed. "But there's nowhere to go but up! This is one of the primary challenges of parenting. Not letting your grownup stress impact your kids' childhood innocence. We all have struggles, and sometimes the toll they take is going to manifest itself, often in ways you don't even realize. I guess the good news is: I do realize it. Which makes it even more crucial that I manage it, and do whatever I can to prevent my kids from catching on. I've gotta fake it until *they* make it. But what else is new?"