Chrissy Teigen Knew Her Postpartum Depression Was Getting Bad When She Started Keeping Clothes in the Pantry

Chrissy Teigen has always been open about her struggle with postpartum depression (PPD) after giving birth to her daughter, Luna, now 3, but in a series of video clips in collaboration with Allegheny Health Network (AHN), Chrissy is opening up even more to help launch the #MyWishForMoms initiative "to help end the stigma of Postpartum Depression and Anxiety." The mom of two sat down with other moms who suffered from PPD and revealed when she knew her own depression was getting bad.

"I knew things were really bad when I started keeping clothes in the pantry because I wasn't going up to bed," she told Ashleigh Griffin, a mom who experienced PPD after the birth of her son. "The mere thought of going up, changing for bed, and then getting dressed again and coming downstairs the next day was just painful to me. So I just started sleeping on the couch for a couple of months — and John slept with me every night — I would keep a stack of clothes in the pantry, the same clothes I was pregnant in. I was just like, 'Screw it.' I basically lived on the first floor of my house forever."

While talking to Rochelle Leeper, who experienced PPD as well as suicidal thoughts after the birth of her middle child and was able to overcome her condition thanks to an AHN counselor, Chrissy touched on the phenomenon between feeling highs and lows from pregnancy to after the birth. "I feel more energetic and happier when I'm pregnant, and that's why I like to compare it to how bad it can be after, was because I was on this total high and then it was just the lowest of lows. It was night and day, it was just a different human being."

"In baby music class they're not like, 'I have postpartum, do you?'"

This high and low comparison likely contributed to Chrissy having fear over experiencing PPD again after having her son, Miles, but luckily, she was ready to combat it if it came to that. However, some moms aren't as ready for the symptoms that come with the condition, which is why Chrissy wants to open up the conversations surrounding PPD and anxiety much further.

Chrissy expressed to Ashleigh that one of the hardest parts about struggling with PPD is that no one really talks about it or prepares you for the potential of it. "None of the regular mom groups [talk about it]," she said. "In baby music class they're not like, 'I have postpartum, do you?'"

"My wish for moms is that they know they aren't alone, and they are supported by the more than 500,000 women who share their experience each year," Chrissy said in a press release. "Imagine if we can get as many people talking about postpartum depression and anxiety as those experiencing it, and let them know help is available."

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Chrissy Discussing the Lack of Conversation Around PPD, Specifically at Mommy Groups

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Chrissy on Her Highs During Pregnancy to the Lows After Birth

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Chrissy Talking About Leaving Clothes in Her Pantry