On struggling after losing Paul: "I went crazy a little bit. I went pretty crazy. A lot of the stuff I did last year I would never do had I been in my right mind."
On the challenges of moving forward: "I felt like nothing I could do could make me feel alive, so I just kept pushing myself harder and harder. I was traveling and I was having sex. And I was just trying to ignore everything that I was feeling."
On her friendship with Paul: "I could see Paul once every two years and just know there was another human on the planet who's deep like me, who loves like that. When that disappears, you wonder, 'Wait a minute, what do I hold on to?' There was nothing to tether me to this existence: 'Why am I f*cking here? And, like, why'd you leave without me?'"
On finding a new sense of purpose: "I just woke up [one morning] with a profound respect for living. I stood tall one day and I said, 'You know what, Michelle? Stop f*cking hiding. Go manifest.'"