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Mom Holds Preemies For the First Time After Losing a Child

This Mom's Account of What It's Like to Hold Your Preemies For the First Time Will Make You Sob

Preemie Mom Holds Two Of Her 22 Weeker Triplets Together For T...

That first moment. You never forget it. It’s engraved in your heart forever. But holding your baby for the first time takes on a new meaning when you’re a preemie parent. The constant beeps and alarms hum through the dimly lit room. Wires, tubes, and monitors are being juggled between half a dozen nurses. In the middle of it all is a tiny, fragile baby, born too soon. A baby who shouldn’t be alive. I never got that dream moment shortly after birth--the picture you see so often with a baby being placed in the mother’s arms. Nope. Not me. My children were born too early, more than 17 weeks premature. In the chaos of a terrifying delivery, my babies were whisked off to the NICU before I even realized they were alive. I didn’t get to hold my daughter, our lone survivor, until she was one week old. And it was close to two weeks until I held my son. It felt like an eternity, but the wait was well worth it. In this video, I held two of my children for the first time together, nearly six weeks after they were born. As the team of nurses carefully moved wires, I sat in a special chair, tears welling up in my eyes. Excitement, fear and anxiety consumed me. I watched as the nurses slowly unhooked the chords and brought my one pound babies toward me. One at a time, they gently placed them on my chest and worked quickly to reattach every wire and tube. As they covered my children up with a blanket, they leaned me back in the chair, reminding me not to move. Any sudden movement could cause a significant emergency. Reality sank in as I was overcome with emotion. I was finally holding my children, their skin touching mine for the first time outside of the womb. The wires and tubes disappeared as I closed my eyes, the sounds of the machines and alarms pushed out of my mind. I finally felt like a mother. You never forget the first time that you held your child. It may not have been exactly how you planned, but for preemie parents, it’s a magical feeling...picture perfect in every way. * Jukin Media Verified * Find this video and others like it by visiting https://www.jukinmedia.com/licensing/view/987030 For licensing / permission to use, please email licensing(at)jukinmedia(dot)com. #prematurityawarenessmonth #preemie #NICU #prematurebirth #micropreemie #premature Love What Matters March of Dimes

Posted by Stacey Skrysak on Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Stacey Skrysak, a mother from Springfield, IL, is no stranger to loss. But rather than dwelling on the children she's lost, she's focused on living in the moment. She posted a beyond heartbreaking video of when she held the two of her three triplets who were born prematurely for the very first time. Unfortunately, one of her daughters had already passed away.

Stacey explains how emotional it was to finally hold her two surviving children, Peyton and Parker, for the very first time after six long weeks in a Facebook post. "That first moment. You never forget it. It's engraved in your heart forever. But holding your baby for the first time takes on a new meaning when you're a preemie parent. The constant beeps and alarms hum through the dimly lit room. Wires, tubes, and monitors are being juggled between half a dozen nurses. In the middle of it all is a tiny, fragile baby, born too soon."

But unfortunately for Stacey, Parker's health started to deteriorate with each passing day. The mom told POPSUGAR how her family was forced to make a decision that most parents only face in their nightmares:

"Just a few days prior, the neonatologist pulled us into a conference room and shared the news — our son suffered a major brain injury, most likely from the stress of a recent surgery . . . As we learned more about how gravely ill he was, we gathered our family and ended care on Aug. 16."

It's now become Stacey's mission to be a resource for parents who were planning on having multiples, but tragically lost one or all of them. And despite being rattled with grief, Stacey knows that she needs to count her blessings, and her biggest one is her surviving daughter, Peyton. But that doesn't mean there's anything wrong with looking back at the precious moments she spent with her baby boy:

"It's definitely bittersweet, but we try not to dwell. Instead, I like to look back and think of how lucky we were to have nearly two months with our son. So many parents never even get a day or even a minute. It's the hardest decision a parent could ever have to make. But we never wanted Parker to suffer. This video means the world to our family."

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