Shirt Reminds Mom of Son Who Passed Away
An Ordinary Polo Shirt Caught This Grieving Mom Off Guard For 1 Heartbreaking Reason
Despite the fact that Stacey Skrysak, a mom from Illinois, tries especially hard to not dwell on dark parts of the past, she's the first one to admit that you can really never get over the sorrow of losing a child. In a Facebook post, Stacey explained how even shopping for her daughter can bring the pain of losing her infant son Parker to the forefront.
Dear Son, I thought of you today. I was walking through the store, looking at clothes for your sister, when this shirt caught my eye. It was size four, the perfect fit if you were alive today.
The preppy shirt is exactly what I imagine you wearing, a classic look to match your sweet disposition. The green and blue colors would look perfect on you, complimenting your messy blonde "Parker hair." I found myself pulling out my phone and snapping a picture, wanting that reminder of what could have been.
Stacey went on to explain that Parker tragically passed away in her arms on Aug. 16, 2013, and that she often wonders what he'd be like had he survived:
"As I stared at that Polo shirt, I wondered what your life would be like today. Would you be into building things like your dad? Or would you be in the kitchen baking brownies with me? Would you get along with your rambunctious sister or would roll your eyes each time she has a meltdown? So many questions that will never be answered," she wrote. "It's the unfortunate reality for those of us grieving parents who never get to watch their children grow up."
Despite having to say her final goodbye to Parker after 55 short days, Stacey still considers herself lucky in a sense. "I thought about how lucky I was to meet you and how so many parents never even get that chance, instead losing their children to miscarriage or stillbirth."
And that's a pretty positive outlook on the situation, considering she lost not one, but two children in her lifetime.
As I got into my car, I reached my hand up to my necklace. I rubbed my fingers over the initials P & A, always holding my two children in Heaven close to my heart. I often wonder what you and your triplet sister are doing in Heaven. Are you watching over us as we play with your sister who survived? Are you having your own play date with other sweet children above?
The grieving mom signed off by saying that although she's moved on with her life in many ways, the children she's lost still come to the top of her mind each and every day. "I thought you yesterday and the day before that. And I will think of you every single day of my life. You and your sister may no longer be here, but you will never be forgotten."
