Bryce Dallas Howard was thrilled when she learned about her pregnancy and carried that joy with her through the birth of her son, Theodore Norman. But her emotions quickly changed, and she struggled to hide how she felt from friends and family. "It is strange for me to recall what I was like at that time," she described to Goop during an interview. "I seemed to be suffering emotional amnesia. I couldn't genuinely cry, or laugh, or be moved by anything. For the sake of those around me, including my son, I pretended, but when I began showering again in the second week, I let loose in the privacy of the bathroom, water flowing over me as I heaved uncontrollable sobs. Worst of all, I definitely felt I was a rotten mother — not a bad one, a rotten one. Because the truth was, every time I looked at my son, I wanted to disappear."
