"There was this weight on my chest that I felt for so many years that I was never able to cry," Harry shared. "So I was constantly trying to find a way to cry, but — in even sitting on my sofa and going over as many memories as I could muster up about my mum. And sometimes I watched videos online [hoping to cry]."
Instead of crying, Harry ended up turning to psychedelics like ayahuasca and psilocybin. "I would never recommend people to do this recreationally. But doing it with the right people if you are suffering from a huge amount of loss, grief, or trauma, then these things have a way of working as a medicine . . . for me, they cleared the wind-screen, the windshield, the misery of loss. They cleared away this idea that I had in my head . . . that I needed to cry to prove to my mother that I missed her. When in fact all she wanted was for me to be happy."
