Chrissy Teigen has had a difficult couple of months following the loss of her son Jack on Sept. 30 at just about halfway through her pregnancy. On Nov 28, the mom of 2-year-old Miles and 4-year-old Luna took time to reflect on the last two "brutal" months of her life, and to share that she's noticed small signs that she's possibly starting to come out the other end.
"When I'm old and grey, I will look back on the last two months as being brutal, exhausting, sad, physically challenging, mentally painful b*tches of a couple months," she wrote under a photo of herself lounging on the couch in an all-black ensemble accessorized with a fur hood, sunglasses, and light blue pug socks. "But I refuse to not find humor in both the rage-fits and the outfits."
Chrissy continued, sharing that she's begun to notice her pain shifting a bit. "I already see the leaves as orange instead of grey, realized the sky is indeed blue and not black and horn honks on my forced morning walks only bring me to my knees half the time. I can make it up my stairs only stopping once or twice instead of every other, and can get out of the bathtub all by myself as long as I have the promise john will dry me off. anyhow the point is, f*ck, I think it's happening ❤️"
In the time following their loss, both Chrissy and John have been open about their grief. In a moving essay for Medium, Chrissy shared why it was important for her to have photos of herself in the hospital on the morning they lost Jack.
"I had asked my mom and John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was. I explained to a very hesitant John that I needed them, and that I did NOT want to have to ever ask. That he just had to do it," she shared. "He hated it. I could tell. It didn't make sense to him at the time. But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story."