Popsugar Fitness Healthy Living Woman's Healthy Weight-Gain Transformation How 1 Woman’s Life-Threatening Battle With Anorexia Guided Her to Become a Bodybuilder November 22, 2016 by Perri Konecky View On One Page Photo 1 of 16 ADVERTISEMENT () Start Slideshow #TransformationTuesday Then —January 2014: 68 lbs, suffering with anorexia nervous, depression, at risk of heart failure, osteoporosis, death. Now — November 2016: 110 lbs, healthy, grateful, alive 💜 There is a lot of pain in looking back, remembering the horrors I breathed and the illness that consumed. However, there are blessings found in reflection. Looking back, I reaffirm the greater force that magnifies my direction. There are reasons behind my advocacy - there is purpose beyond my pain. I could mention to you all the details of living within hospital walls, spending more time institutionalized than eating my own birthday cake. Or I could tell you about how I had more conversations with doctors and psychiatrists than I did my own family. How I spent more time pushing myself away than to cure a hate that fed deep into my sanity I could tell you what it's like to be your own worst enemy, starving a monster you thought you were/ Except you were not/ When I saw the demons a part of myself, I realized I spent too many years apologizing for the calories I consumed and the skin I wore. / I spent too many years conforming boundaries when I should have been breaking them./ Anorexia's fate was far too small to contain my youth, my beauty, my ambition, and I promised myself through this epiphany that every breath I took would be for one person only. / When there is life and death to choose from, I chose life, and I chose it intensely. I continue to make this decision every single day #LiveWithIntensity #BestSelf #FightForGrowth A photo posted by Sarah Ramadan (@fightforgrowth) on Nov 15, 2016 at 7:51pm PST Share This Link Copy ← Use Arrow Keys → 1 Previous Next Start Slideshow Healthy LivingEating DisordersWeight GainBody Image