"I interrupt your Instagram feed for a brief moment of honesty — I haven't always loved my body. At times, I hated it. As a model you are judged on your looks everyday [sic]. People don't hesitate to point out every one of your flaws. On the same photo-shoot I heard that 'she's anorexic looking' and from someone else that 'she's too fat to model'. For real. It's harsh. When I started modeling at 15 I wanted to be perfect. When my agent told me to lose 3 inches off my hips (I was 5'11" and 120 pounds). I listened. I fell into the trap and nearly destroyed my body trying to fit into someone else's idea of what I should look like. As I physically & mentally recovered from losing too much weight and the self hatred that goes along with developing eating disordered patterns, I started to learn practices of self love. Today, I make my living as a model. I still hear feedback on 'she's too big' or even 'she's not strong or not curvy enough'. But I no longer try to fit into the mold of what a 'fashion model' should look like. I embrace my curves. When I want a cookie, I eat a cookie. But I also workout hard- always challenging myself to be stronger, faster, more flexible. Today, I love my body for everything it is. I'm so grateful that my strong legs can carry me through a half marathon, that I can leg press with the best of them, that my boobs and booty get me booked on swim and lingerie campaigns year after year, that I don't miss out on the joy of eating and celebrating with friends by starving myself. I share this because it's important to know that we all struggle and we all have insecurities, let's support each other and create a community of love and lifting each other up!"
!["I interrupt your Instagram feed for a brief moment of honesty — I haven't always loved my body. At times, I hated it. As a model you are judged on your looks everyday [sic]. People don't hesitate to point out every one of your flaws. On the same photo-shoot I heard that 'she's anorexic looking' and from someone else that 'she's too fat to model'. For real. It's harsh. When I started modeling at 15 I wanted to be perfect. When my agent told me to lose 3 inches off my hips (I was 5'11" and 120 pounds). I listened. I fell into the trap and nearly destroyed my body trying to fit into someone else's idea of what I should look like. As I physically & mentally recovered from losing too much weight and the self hatred that goes along with developing eating disordered patterns, I started to learn practices of self love. Today, I make my living as a model. I still hear feedback on 'she's too big' or even 'she's not strong or not curvy enough'. But I no longer try to fit into the mold of what a 'fashion model' should look like. I embrace my curves. When I want a cookie, I eat a cookie. But I also workout hard- always challenging myself to be stronger, faster, more flexible. Today, I love my body for everything it is. I'm so grateful that my strong legs can carry me through a half marathon, that I can leg press with the best of them, that my boobs and booty get me booked on swim and lingerie campaigns year after year, that I don't miss out on the joy of eating and celebrating with friends by starving myself. I share this because it's important to know that we all struggle and we all have insecurities, let's support each other and create a community of love and lifting each other up!"](https://media1.popsugar-assets.com/files/thumbor/I2W-tDewxTJv4NdLgRZ17LkVXkE/fit-in/1024x1024/filters:format_auto-!!-:strip_icc-!!-/2015/07/13/813/n/1922729/fb9a807d92ba47fc_9/i/I-interrupt-your-Instagram-feed-brief-moment-honesty-I.jpg "\"I interrupt your Instagram feed for a brief moment of honesty — I haven't always loved my body. At times, I hated it. As a model you are judged on your looks everyday [sic]. People don't hesitate to point out every one of your flaws. On the same photo-shoot I heard that 'she's anorexic looking' and from someone else that 'she's too fat to model'. For real. It's harsh. When I started modeling at 15 I wanted to be perfect. When my agent told me to lose 3 inches off my hips (I was 5'11\" and 120 pounds). I listened. I fell into the trap and nearly destroyed my body trying to fit into someone else's idea of what I should look like. As I physically & mentally recovered from losing too much weight and the self hatred that goes along with developing eating disordered patterns, I started to learn practices of self love. Today, I make my living as a model. I still hear feedback on 'she's too big' or even 'she's not strong or not curvy enough'. But I no longer try to fit into the mold of what a 'fashion model' should look like. I embrace my curves. When I want a cookie, I eat a cookie. But I also workout hard- always challenging myself to be stronger, faster, more flexible. Today, I love my body for everything it is. I'm so grateful that my strong legs can carry me through a half marathon, that I can leg press with the best of them, that my boobs and booty get me booked on swim and lingerie campaigns year after year, that I don't miss out on the joy of eating and celebrating with friends by starving myself. I share this because it's important to know that we all struggle and we all have insecurities, let's support each other and create a community of love and lifting each other up!\"")
