Lady Gaga was impregnated by the producer that raped her as a teen. "I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, 'Take your clothes off,'" she recalled. "And I said no. And I left, and they told me they were going to burn all of my music. And they didn't stop. They didn't stop asking me, and I just froze and I — I don't even remember. And I will not say his name. I understand this #MeToo movement, and I understand a lot of people feel really comfortable with this. I do not ever want to face this person again." Years later, Gaga went to the hospital for pain and numbness, and she was surprised when they sent in a psychiatrist to see her, rather than a medical doctor. "I felt full-on pain, then I went numb," she explained. "And then, I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after, and I realized that it was the same pain I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on the corner [outside] my parents' house, because I was vomiting, and sick. 'Cause I'd been being abused. I was locked away in a studio for months."
As a result of the trauma, Gaga suffered a "psychotic break" for a couple of years. "I used to scream and throw myself at a wall," Gaga said. "And you know why it's not good to self-harm? Because it makes you feel worse. You think you're going to feel better because you're showing someone, 'Hey, look, I'm in pain' — it doesn't help. I always tell people, tell somebody, don't show somebody."