Amber shared that sports in general have offered them a physical release to the anxiety and depression that is always present in some form. Moving is their way of meditating, finding comfort in their body, and connecting with their body in healthy ways.
"I don't always feel good in my body because of body dysmorphia — a sense of discomfort and agitation based on how my body feels, which is often made worse by how I perceive people see me." They explained that not all trans folks experience this, but they do.
Since having had top surgery in 2019, the dysmorphia has lessened, they said. "Heated yoga, running, CrossFit, and any other intense activity takes the edge off and builds compassion and trust in myself. My body does really amazing things, and I'm learning to love my body instead of hating it."
Amber also shared that they have had yogis who have been amazing mentors. And their coaches through The Phoenix Program at CrossFit Burlington have been supportive, willing to learn, and make sure the gym is affirming and inclusive for queer folks, which is huge. They shared in this caption that this program has been a "very special part of my recovery. Physical fitness, moving, and sweating have saved my life. I am not being dramatic about this." They said in their caption, "After two years and many lessons, I have a community who cheers me on and helps me feel worth the hard work."
